So, maybe I haven't lost my best friend. My life has still changed in ways I wasn't prepared for it to though. I hate being so alone.

Not happy about this but...

So, the past few days I've been drinking alone. That's probably not good. I'm pretty drunk right now, and it's all on account of two women in my life. Or to be more accurate, one that's back in it in a way, and one that's out of it. If it were the other way around, I'd be golden.

I miss her more than I should. And she's only been gone for a couple days.

And she was never really mine anyway. Even though she said she was herself.

I knew though. I really did. I just managed to delude myself.

She is such an awesome person too. I've lost my best friend.

And I'm drunk.

Not good.

My life...

My life is a fucking mess right now. Ex gf troubles, and I may have lost my best friend... among other things.

That's not so much a secret if you know me though. Well, some of it is. Fuck, most of it is.

I suck at life.